Honesty disclaimer: I think that was the most difficult post that I have written to date, and it really has me struggling with what is right and wrong. It also has me worried what may happen should I push this dream to far.

I have dreamed, worked and achieved my goal. I am now living 100% off income from blogging. Well that in addition to my wife’s income, but my income from blogging, although it could always be higher, is at the goal point that I set for myself and it is where it was when I left my 9-5 job two years back.

I will say that my income is far from a six-figure blogger, but it’s enough to give me freedom from a 9-5 office job, along with some flexibility.

Based on that I should be happy, hell I should be thrilled, but I am having seconds thoughts as to the path that I have chosen, and sometimes dream of just how easy I had it when I had a real/office job. I must also say that I am not ready to go back to that path, not yet anyway.

However, I am beginning to question whether the new found flexibility is actually hurting me more than helping me. Although I have freedom to come and go during the day as I please, and I can set my own hours, I still find myself working, or at least being available for writers questions much more than I ever was when I had a regular job.

I have become the internet addict that cannot break away from work and when I do make a break, I generally have a laptop or iPhone close by, just in case. During the week its not as bad, because I am able to drop my daughters off in the morning and pick them up in the afternoon. I generally get up early and work before everyone else is awake, then stop for some family duties, then come back to work and finish up just before I pick them up again in the afternoon. I sometimes also work, when busy, in the evenings. Generally my evening work is laid back and done while sitting on the couch with my family watching TV.

All of this at least sounds great, I have the money that I need, I have the flexibility that I want, but here is the kicker. I generally work seven days a week. Which when you have a wife (or significant other) who is on a 9-5 Monday-Friday schedule that becomes difficult on Saturday and Sunday.

I will say that I have not yet given up on keeping this dream alive, but as it stands I am beginning to question whether it is indeed worth it. Although my wife understands and I still make plenty of time for my kids I feel the limit is being pushed. The limit I believe is mostly due to me being unable to make day long time commitments to enjoy the full day and really get out.

I am at a point where I need to move to a higher level of being a problogger. I feel that while most people think it is hard to become a problogger, and don’t get me wrong, it is hard. I now believe that the harder part comes once you are there and then in turn being able to move up the ladder so to speak. While I am a problogger I am still relatively unknown by name and that is limiting, because instead I tend to work longer hours to make the same money as some “better” known bloggers.

An easy solution would be to find someone to replace me during the weekends, but sadly those weekends are dependent on my income and I cannot give those up.

I am not really sure what I am looking for by posting this, but really just needed to vent. And possibly shed some light on what being a full time blogger entails to someone looking to make that journey. It is a position that requires a lot of time and dedication.